My oldest daughter is now nine years old, when i took my maternity leave right before she came to live in this world, I had full intentions of going back to work, but I found I did not have a job waiting for me any longer when I went back, that turned out to be alright because eight short months after having Grace, Tommy and I were blessed to be expecting our second, our Pieper, not having a job worked for us, child care as some of you know, is very expensive, it was better for us for me just to stay home, why is this important? i would find out later that God does have the best plan, and i would absolutely need to be there for both of my girls.
I was raised with a very strong work ethic, my parents taught me to always do my best, you know the old, do it to the best of your ability or don't do it at all, so in my life I have tried to be the best at what I did, I am a hard worker, I put all of that into being a wife and mother. When we knew something was not quite right with Pieper, i knew that my ideas of going back to work after the girls started school would most likely not be my reality, that was hard for me to swallow, I found being at home a bit boring, I loved the hustle of working, but it was what i had to do, I did love being with my little chicks, and I just knew that my Pie was going to need me.
We live a very humble life,Tommy works hard for everything we have, our home has always been full of more love than things, we like it that way. The idea of getting any help for Pieper was not a financial possibility, but we have been blessed with an amazing school program, and incredible teachers for Pieper, and life was moving right along, this last year, some behavior that had been a part of Pieper, were getting worse, she was getting older, and it was not as cute and endearing anymore, it was becoming clear, we had to do something. I heard about a place called Brain Balance from a woman I meet, her son had success there, and i was open for something, anything at that point, so I made a call, just as I expected the price tag was something I didn't think we could do, and once again it was back to just surviving, trying to get through everyday without losing it. Shortly after that I was visiting with my Mother, and spilled my frustrations out to her, I can only imagine how tuff that must be to see your child, and your grandchild going through something as emotionally draining as autism, so my mom offered to help with the cost, Ahh for the first time a glimmer of hope, could we really get help? could Pieper's life be different? those thoughts made my mind overflow with dreams and possibilities.
With great hope and excitement I started Pie on the process, the testing, we have been here before, but it felt so different this time, for me anyway, not so much for my sweet Pie, she did not want to do it, but we got through it, the time came to sit down for the results, and it was what we expected, at least part of it, there was one big shock, the price tag....much bigger, to big, but we have come to far to turn back, so now we pray and plan, how will we make it happen, there is still the money my mom wanted to give us, and that will be a great start. I don't know how we are going to do it, but I know God will pave the way, and at the end of this next phase of our life with Pieper will be an outcome we never before thought was possible, it will be super tuff, Tommy, Grace and I will have to lean on God a lot, I can, see the light at the end of this long tunnel we have all been traveling through, so I am inviting you all to come with us, I will blog all the while, please pray for us, this is our time to let God shine bright in our lives.Oh yeah if anyone has any ideas for fundraising please share, I will need your help, Thank you to all who pray and love us it makes this journey easier. So now we hold for deer life, and we hold on and wait for Pieper's life to really begin.
Grace and Blessings to all
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