Count your blessings ! Ok you might say oh Jennifer how "generic" of you, but for me just the word Blessing is a blessing, it is so beautiful, it makes me smile, it brightens the very moment that i am in.
Think of this, if people could find the blessings in any and every situation, how different the world would look. Yes there are your everyday blessings, I am truly blessed with my hard working and wonderfully loving husband, and of course my incredibly beautiful and uniquely amazing daughters, I have the blessing of an awesome church that is full of the best people i have ever had the honor of calling friends, and brothers and sisters in Christ. Most resent i have the blessing of an old friendship, made new again in Christ, thanks to the blessing of Facebook lol.
There other blessings not so obvious, like the cancer and passing of my Grandmother, Yes I know that may seem a bit strange, but my grandma and I had been estranged for several years, and it was not until she became sick when I returned to her life, and then was by her side for most of her last months, I rediscovered her, found the love for her that had been lost for so long, that in turn gave me beautiful memories of a unique, and wonderful life, instead of bitterness from silly grudges.
Ahh and then there was today, I had the blessing of a bad case of poison oak! Grace has been home for a few days with poison oak all over her face and neck, we were getting a little cabin fever, so we went to the park, I took a walk while she played, at one point I watched as she ran freely and played with the biggest smile on her face, it took me back to times we shared before she started school, and before the weight living with a little sister with Autism made her grow up to fast, that moment really stayed with me, and it became such a blessing in my heart. How many countless blessings does God give us everyday ? if we could just look at them, or look for them everywhere, maybe just maybe a bad day could be turned into a good day, and a good day could become great ! even if you are treating poison oak. So grab onto Gods blessing and let them change you forever.
Blessings to all !
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Healed Hearts
As i sat down to write this morning i realized it had been a very long time since i last wrote, Wow did life happen to me, things got really busy, but now it is summer time and I think I will have more time, we will see how that goes.
Most of my writing so far has been about how Pieper's Autism has effected my family , but I would like to touch on the power God has had on my life, I did name this blog "My life with God and Autism" after all if it weren't for Gods amazing power I would not deal well at all with the things life has for me, I mean lets be honest, I'm a drama queen, and totally spoiled (I blame my Dad for that one) so throwing a fit is how i usually handle things, and that won't work, Pieper does enough of that, and it would be weird if we both did it, and a bit pathetic.
Over this last Memorial day weekend I was very aware of Gods healing power. My family and I were sitting on the deck one night, telling stories and laughing, having such a great time. In that moment I could see Gods hand on all of us, it was only a few short years ago that would not have been possible, you see my husband was really not always so great to me, he was an addict for most of his adult life, and he struggled with it for the first several years of our life, and because of that he did not make the best choices sometimes, and i don't have to tell you that those choices, upset my parents and my brothers quite often, and life at that point with my family was very uncomfortable. Tommy was at one point not welcome at my parents home, and i did spent time separated from them, i was trying to keep thing together for my babies, but i felt like i was failing, Tommy could not keep himself clean, and I was loosing it, things were pretty dark for me. But that all changed, the day we opened our eyes to the life God had waiting for us. And in our lives being healed( Psalm 147:3 ) he also began to heal my family as well, they started to forgive Tommy, letting him come back around, and before they even knew it they started to love him. Now fast forward to this last Memorial day, and we were all laughing together, it was in fact a wonderful weekend, and I believe that it would never have been possible with out Gods presents in our life, and that is a gift He has given me that is priceless. Thank you Lord for you healing power in the lives of my family, may you continue to be at work in all of my families lives, and shine your light on them.
Blessings to all
Most of my writing so far has been about how Pieper's Autism has effected my family , but I would like to touch on the power God has had on my life, I did name this blog "My life with God and Autism" after all if it weren't for Gods amazing power I would not deal well at all with the things life has for me, I mean lets be honest, I'm a drama queen, and totally spoiled (I blame my Dad for that one) so throwing a fit is how i usually handle things, and that won't work, Pieper does enough of that, and it would be weird if we both did it, and a bit pathetic.
Over this last Memorial day weekend I was very aware of Gods healing power. My family and I were sitting on the deck one night, telling stories and laughing, having such a great time. In that moment I could see Gods hand on all of us, it was only a few short years ago that would not have been possible, you see my husband was really not always so great to me, he was an addict for most of his adult life, and he struggled with it for the first several years of our life, and because of that he did not make the best choices sometimes, and i don't have to tell you that those choices, upset my parents and my brothers quite often, and life at that point with my family was very uncomfortable. Tommy was at one point not welcome at my parents home, and i did spent time separated from them, i was trying to keep thing together for my babies, but i felt like i was failing, Tommy could not keep himself clean, and I was loosing it, things were pretty dark for me. But that all changed, the day we opened our eyes to the life God had waiting for us. And in our lives being healed( Psalm 147:3 ) he also began to heal my family as well, they started to forgive Tommy, letting him come back around, and before they even knew it they started to love him. Now fast forward to this last Memorial day, and we were all laughing together, it was in fact a wonderful weekend, and I believe that it would never have been possible with out Gods presents in our life, and that is a gift He has given me that is priceless. Thank you Lord for you healing power in the lives of my family, may you continue to be at work in all of my families lives, and shine your light on them.
Blessings to all
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Thank God for Teachers!
Has anyone ever had a teacher that changed their life? I never did.....until I had a daughter with autism, and I met my Piepers teacher Laurie, this is a women who was born to work with these special kids, I should say that Laurie has a small army of angels that assist her in her child whispering talents, and it is i am sure a well tuned machine of truly organized chaos.
We had the yearly IEP(individual education plan)meeting today, and anyone who has gone through this knows it can be a tough thing to go through, especially when your child does not meet the goals set, like usually happens with Pie, but these ladies make it so easy to get through, we laugh about the uniqueness of Pieper and her one of a kind quirks. And I left today feeling hopeful, and at peace about who is guiding my special little girl through her school day. I absolutely thank God for Laurie Koger everyday!!
So Thank you Laurie for your hard work and great spirit.
This is just another God thing in my life, when we were moving to Independence the only hesitation that we had was the schools, we just didn't know much about them, but like everything else in our lives, we put it Gods hands, and as always his plan is perfect, both of our girls are right were they should be, Psalm 9:10 says those who know your name will trust in you,for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you. I live by that the very best that I can.
To all the teachers out there, you do make a difference, and I want to say a thank you to all of you for what you do for all the kids out there.
Blessings to all!
We had the yearly IEP(individual education plan)meeting today, and anyone who has gone through this knows it can be a tough thing to go through, especially when your child does not meet the goals set, like usually happens with Pie, but these ladies make it so easy to get through, we laugh about the uniqueness of Pieper and her one of a kind quirks. And I left today feeling hopeful, and at peace about who is guiding my special little girl through her school day. I absolutely thank God for Laurie Koger everyday!!
So Thank you Laurie for your hard work and great spirit.
This is just another God thing in my life, when we were moving to Independence the only hesitation that we had was the schools, we just didn't know much about them, but like everything else in our lives, we put it Gods hands, and as always his plan is perfect, both of our girls are right were they should be, Psalm 9:10 says those who know your name will trust in you,for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you. I live by that the very best that I can.
To all the teachers out there, you do make a difference, and I want to say a thank you to all of you for what you do for all the kids out there.
Blessings to all!
Friday, February 11, 2011
Disappointment
Disappointment......What an ugly word that is, when I hear that word it brings an instant feeling, either sadness or anger, and sometimes just a blah feeling, some days, even years are so disappointing.
When I first found out that Pieper had autism i spent a long time living in my disappointment, about the life she would not be living, wandering if she would ever fall in love, disappointed she was not going to see and understand the beauty of life, the way the rest of us do anyway. Then i thought about the life that I would not be living, wandering if Tommy and I would ever have the "golden years" we had day dreamed about, there were a lot of question marks swimming in my head.
Now put everyday disappointment on top of that, things like, my jeans not fitting the way i would like, or my husband not picking up his dirty clothes off the floor,and other things that weren't as silly, i knew I couldn't have a regular job again, I need to be there for both my girls, but mostly for little Pie, and I knew that meant less money for us, we would be fighting to make it.......boy i cried some tears that year, a lot of tears.
I had to make a change, pick myself up and do what I do best, just get through it. There comes a time for all of us, when life throws a curve ball, what are you going to do, let it crush you with disappointment? don't do that! God has great things waiting for us all, and sometimes the huge disappointment in are lives are the gifts God gives us to get us ready for something super awesome, so chin up God has a great plan, sometimes we can't see it, but it is there. ask him to show you, he will.
Today could have been a real disappointment but I know Gods plan for my life is better than anything I could dream up, so put my trust in him and live the blessed life he has given me.
Blessings to all
When I first found out that Pieper had autism i spent a long time living in my disappointment, about the life she would not be living, wandering if she would ever fall in love, disappointed she was not going to see and understand the beauty of life, the way the rest of us do anyway. Then i thought about the life that I would not be living, wandering if Tommy and I would ever have the "golden years" we had day dreamed about, there were a lot of question marks swimming in my head.
Now put everyday disappointment on top of that, things like, my jeans not fitting the way i would like, or my husband not picking up his dirty clothes off the floor,and other things that weren't as silly, i knew I couldn't have a regular job again, I need to be there for both my girls, but mostly for little Pie, and I knew that meant less money for us, we would be fighting to make it.......boy i cried some tears that year, a lot of tears.
I had to make a change, pick myself up and do what I do best, just get through it. There comes a time for all of us, when life throws a curve ball, what are you going to do, let it crush you with disappointment? don't do that! God has great things waiting for us all, and sometimes the huge disappointment in are lives are the gifts God gives us to get us ready for something super awesome, so chin up God has a great plan, sometimes we can't see it, but it is there. ask him to show you, he will.
Today could have been a real disappointment but I know Gods plan for my life is better than anything I could dream up, so put my trust in him and live the blessed life he has given me.
Blessings to all
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Entertaining angels
Feeling very uninspired today, another long snow day with the girls, with Pieper anyway, everything seemed to take forever today, she has been to many days off her schedule, she is all over the place. These are the days i am so envious of all things "normal" wondering what it would be like to have a conversation with Pieper, ask her to do something or come inside from playing, and have her do it without a tantrum, and all the while making sure my amazing Grace doesn't gets pushed aside,( she has an incredible spirit) it is a delicate balance, most days i take it as is gets thrown at me pretty well, but today was "one of those days"
And now as i write this i think of Hebrews 13:2 it reminds us that we could be unknowingly entertaining angels, what a beautiful thought, and sometime she is an angel here on earth, I know it is an incredible honor to be raising one of Gods most special princesses.
I do thank God for my girls everyday, he has paired them together so perfectly, Grace was undeniably made to be Piepees sister, i couldn't make it through some days without her,she is amazing, can't wait to see the kind of women she will become.
Glad there is school tomorrow! just enough time to get rested up for the weekend.
Blessings to you all
And now as i write this i think of Hebrews 13:2 it reminds us that we could be unknowingly entertaining angels, what a beautiful thought, and sometime she is an angel here on earth, I know it is an incredible honor to be raising one of Gods most special princesses.
I do thank God for my girls everyday, he has paired them together so perfectly, Grace was undeniably made to be Piepees sister, i couldn't make it through some days without her,she is amazing, can't wait to see the kind of women she will become.
Glad there is school tomorrow! just enough time to get rested up for the weekend.
Blessings to you all
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Snow day...patience
Another snow day!!! ugh!!! There have been so many snow days, it feels like my girls have been OUT of school, more than they have been in since Christmas break. I know,cherish these times while they are young, they go by so fast....yes, but these snow days are getting crazy.
All children with autism have some sort of sensory issue, Pieper is true to that, she is very sensory driven, most of it is pretty funny and keeps us smiling, her sensory of choice, so to speak, is sound, i think she has to smack every surface she comes into contact with, she loves the way her juice sounds when she pours it out on our carpet, (we have so many stains on it) lets see, ripping paper, now that is the one that gets Grace, the paper being ripped is usually something she has made. Somewhere along the way Pieper has found out she can hear her own voice, or sound, when she gets right in my ear, let me clarify sound, it is more like a high pitched screech, and an assortment of Pieper made words, and some of that is cute, but she will do this all day long, i mean it, all day long.
I put all of my trust in my Savior, and the bible tells me that i can do all things through him who gives me strength (Philippians 4:13) so even though these days test every piece of patience in me, I know that this is what I have been created to do. So I will cherish these days because they will be gone to soon, so screech on Piepee!!!!
Blessings to you all
All children with autism have some sort of sensory issue, Pieper is true to that, she is very sensory driven, most of it is pretty funny and keeps us smiling, her sensory of choice, so to speak, is sound, i think she has to smack every surface she comes into contact with, she loves the way her juice sounds when she pours it out on our carpet, (we have so many stains on it) lets see, ripping paper, now that is the one that gets Grace, the paper being ripped is usually something she has made. Somewhere along the way Pieper has found out she can hear her own voice, or sound, when she gets right in my ear, let me clarify sound, it is more like a high pitched screech, and an assortment of Pieper made words, and some of that is cute, but she will do this all day long, i mean it, all day long.
I put all of my trust in my Savior, and the bible tells me that i can do all things through him who gives me strength (Philippians 4:13) so even though these days test every piece of patience in me, I know that this is what I have been created to do. So I will cherish these days because they will be gone to soon, so screech on Piepee!!!!
Blessings to you all
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
I Love you
How many times do we get caught up in our busy lives, and maybe take for granted some of the people that we see everyday? and how often do we tune out of a conversation with a mindless response? its so easy to do.
My daughter Pieper just turned 6yrs old this year, and to this day i haven't heard her say I love you Mom, not one time. Do i know she loves me? of course, she shows me that in more ways than i can count, but the actual words, not yet. On the other hand my daughter Grace says it several times a day, I never get tired of her saying it, i am so aware of what a blessing my Grace is to me. But what i wouldn't do for just one I love from Pieper, when that finally happens i will dance a jig.
So everyone slow down, look your sweet gifts in the eye and know how special those three little words are and never take them for granted, because love is the greatest of all our blessings(1 Corinthians 13:13) Blessings to you all.
My daughter Pieper just turned 6yrs old this year, and to this day i haven't heard her say I love you Mom, not one time. Do i know she loves me? of course, she shows me that in more ways than i can count, but the actual words, not yet. On the other hand my daughter Grace says it several times a day, I never get tired of her saying it, i am so aware of what a blessing my Grace is to me. But what i wouldn't do for just one I love from Pieper, when that finally happens i will dance a jig.
So everyone slow down, look your sweet gifts in the eye and know how special those three little words are and never take them for granted, because love is the greatest of all our blessings(1 Corinthians 13:13) Blessings to you all.
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