Disappointment

Disappointment......What an ugly word that is, when I hear that word it brings an instant feeling, either sadness or anger, and sometimes just a blah feeling, some days, even years are so disappointing.
When I first found out that Pieper had autism i spent a long time living in my disappointment, about the life she would not be living, wandering if she would ever fall in love, disappointed she was not going to see and understand the beauty of life, the way the rest of us do anyway. Then i thought about the life that I would not be living, wandering if Tommy and I would ever have the "golden years" we had day dreamed about, there were a lot of question marks swimming in my head.
Now put everyday disappointment on top of that, things like, my jeans not fitting the way i would like, or my husband not picking up his dirty clothes off the floor,and other things that weren't as silly, i knew I couldn't have a regular job again, I need to be there for both my girls, but mostly for little Pie, and I knew that meant less money for us, we would be fighting to make it.......boy i cried some tears that year, a lot of tears.
 I had to make a change, pick myself up and do what I do best, just get through it. There comes a time for all of us, when life throws a curve ball, what are you going to do, let it crush you with disappointment? don't do that! God has great things waiting for us all, and sometimes the huge disappointment in are lives are the gifts God gives us to get us ready for something super awesome, so chin up God has a great plan, sometimes we can't see it, but it is there. ask him to show you, he will.
Today could have been a real disappointment but I know Gods plan for my life is better than anything I could dream up, so put my trust in him and live the blessed life he has given me.
Blessings to all